Monthly Archives: December 2008

Hey 2008!…

there’s the door.
You’ve overstayed your welcome.
See ya!

Ok, so it wasn’t all bad in 2008… but it certainly wasn’t all good either. So, we’ll take what we saw, and learned, and felt, we’ll reflect on it, we’ll digest it, and we’ll move forward into the new year.

We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year’s Day.
-Edith Lovejoy Pierce

Ok so it’s not New Year’s Day yet, but I plan to have a bit of a healthy brain fog going tomorrow morning, so I thought I would put pen to paper pre-countdown. (er… digits to keys as the case may be). I like to think of the countdown as a count out actually. 2008 is bloodied and beaten and laying on the mat, and we the ref, are counting him out, urging him to just stay down, give up the fight, it’s OVER damnit!

My hopes for the new year? Survival. For all of us.
I’m going to aim low this year. Less disappointing that way.
No that is not a cop out, it’s just reality. 2008 was such an adrenaline rush of “what the fuck?!” right out of the gate that I was exhausted by the time it (the season) rolled to a stop finally. I had spent most of the year convincing everyone else that things were “good” and “fine” and to keep a positive outlook and “look on the bright side”, but in the end it was me who was left unconvinced and battle weary.

Personally, I thought I had made some great strides as far as furthering my career in the industry, but again, circumstance and lots of empty talk and promises leave me starting from scratch in 2009. meh. Shit happens right? Wiser for the experience.

Again, I’m aiming low. With the economic instability as it is, I’m not even entertaining the prospect of full-time employment with a team for this year. I will however be more resourceful in my job-hunting, diversifying my options and making sure that every experience is a learning experience and that I make the most of finding every opportunity. Putting all your eggs in one basket or depending on a single source is limiting and in some case debilitating, something drivers, teams and series have all discovered themselves. It’s not about the money really (though that would be nice) it’s about doing what I love to do, in a setting I love to be in. It’s about being happy. I wish to be happy and doing something I love in the new year. That’s not too much to ask for really. Again, I put it out there that if any of you know of anyone looking for a “girl friday” for their team, driver or organization, point them in my direction. I am open to internships and low-ball offers 😉

Resolutions? I don’t make them really. Again, I think it sets you up for failure. I have goals and desires and plans however. One of those is that I would like to be more consistent and organized in my blogging/writing. I want be able to immerse myself in racing this year, without causing myself the usual financial fallout by year end. I want to be taken seriously. This isn’t a game, or a hobby, or a means of socializing at the track. I bust my ass doing what I do, both away from and at the track. I would like my efforts to reap a more substantial reward than “hey thanks for your help/research/opinion… I’ll call ya”. And if and when I get there, I would like to pay it forward and bring others of my ilk, with the same desires, along for the ride.

My new year’s wish is that come this time in 2009 we are all laughing and reflecting and wondering what the heck we had our panties all bunched up about in January. (and y’all know there are some panty bunching moments coming up right?)

I thank you all for your readership & participation this year. I looked at my stats this morning and was floored by the number compared to the start of the year. That my little soap box in cyberspace has garnered such a following is surprising and humbling all at once.

*sidenote: someone googled “meesh mean” to land at this blog this week, which I found quite hysterical. I assure you, I’m not mean, once you get to know me… if I like you that is… hehehe*

I specifically want to thank all of my fellow keyboard jockeys for your support and linkage and wealth of knowledge. (specifically Tony, Bill & Jeff, in no particular order) You guys continue to set the bar high, forcing me to continue to up my game and hone my skillz daily.

My own personal “transition” from Champ Car to IndyCar was made easier by your acceptance of my naivety, sometimes clouded perception, and “chrome horn” style of expressing myself. This was the one place I felt completely true to myself and just accepted for who I am and appreciated for what I had to offer, as uncensored and brash as I may be at times. (oh and for those who still haven’t figured it out, I’m a broad! LOL! You can only imagine how humorous I found the shocked expressions throughout the season when introduced)

I’m proud and honoured to call many of you friend, and if I had to make one resolution for 09, it would be to make the effort to meet up with as many of you as possible at the track for a frosty beverage and animated conversation!

For those of you venturing out tonight, have fun but be safe and be smart. (especially all you drivers… DON’T give me something lascivious to add to my “Watercooler Wednesday” article next week, particularly in the police blotter section)

Fare thee well 2008!
Bring it on 2009!
Drop the fucking flag and lets get back to racing already!!


Happy christmachannukwanza!!

Wishing you and yours a safe and happy holiday season and a prosperous, happy and healthy 2009.

See ya in the new year!

“Dear Santa…

All I want for Christmas is for you to somehow PLEASE STOP THE MADNESS!!!

Enjoy the cookies & carrots.

I mean seriously, come ON!! Just how many more blows are we expected to take? I feel like that blow up Popeye boxing thingy I had as a kid. *smack!* *twap!* *blam!* *whack!* Who knew the intestinal fortitude that would be required to be a race fan in 2008/2009. My gawd, I don’t know about you all, but I’m spent.

No really, I’m zonked, but I thought I should chime in and let y’all know I hadn’t dropped off the planet. I’ve been working like a dog the past couple of weeks (thankfully), with lots of overtime this week, squeezing every last drop of $$ out of this seasonal job. (which is going to end sooner than I care to think about)

This of course means that I’m nowhere near my computer for 10 – 12hrs of the day, seriously limiting my blog surfing and racing news exponentially. The irony of course is that stepping away from it all for a bit actually refreshed me a little. I was starting to feel excited again, looking forward to the new year… but these weekly sucker punches keep taking me down man.

The possibility of employment in racing in 09 seems more far fetched than ever. The chances of me being anywhere near the 24 in January were flushed this week. And now one of the races that I could actually reasonably afford even on a tight budget has been canceled. (my own disappointment aside, I feel bad for the Detroit Grand Prix staff)


oh and what the fuck is up with Formula 1?? It is having an identity crisis of Sybil proportions. It’s like they put 50 “changes we could make” on one of those carnival wheels and spun in succession until they had come up with what they felt was a reasonable number.

double meh…

OH and happy belated B-day to my bud PT. Here’s to bigger and better things for you in 2009.

anyhoo… I can barely focus at the moment, (picture being on a treadmill while flapping your arms, for 11 hours… that was my day) so I’ll refrain from babbling anymore than I have.

Will try to drop in again soon. (will have plenty of time come January… *sigh* )

TGIF! For those beginning their xmas holidays… have fun, be safe.


it’s snowing on my blog.


(there is another actual post coming later… just making an observation about the odd digital snow that appeared today)